looking back at my posts. :/
i feel....weird -_____-


the way i write now and how i used to write, it's really different. 
i bet i would say the same thing in three years time. hahaha :D


humans change, appearance, attitude, behavior, physical attributes, personalities....they change
i wonder if ever there is something that wouldn't change forever. not even a slightest. hmmmm...


E.

My Wonderful Friends

So, you, you and you. Well, more of you and you.

You #1.

you like to post statuses that make you sound like some expert. so experienced. :)
you think you know everyone. so understanding. :)
you have so many family members. you have a clan, wow. :)
you dump your friends when you meet new ones. how nice of you. :)
you are angry at your dad because he didn't buy you dinner but for your sister. i believe you almost died of starvation at that time. )
you don't care about others when the guys are around. so, you are a girl. :)

at least you are better than You #2. :)

I hope I am back :\

Wow, it has been a loooooong time i've had blog.
The last time i blogged, was...two years ago? @.@


Anyway, I am back. :D
I love diaries, but I am just too lazy to write it everyday...... 
I don't really get how people write diary every single day, hahah


Errr, needa go now. 

wow..the last day of january
time flies...i believe i can fly
if i m the one who is flying, Great!
but if the time is flying, Darn!

honestly,till now,
i still cant stick with the
WAKE UP EARLY BEFORE SUNRISE
luckily the panda havent come find me
we're still playing hide a seek for the time being
if panda comes, no way i hit it in the eyes
the eyes wont change, still the same old black colour
since i have so many class funds..i mean money
makan suap will done
clever me

lots of stories to share with you all
especially the teachers who teaches 3A1
(they're very very interesting)
i think it we leave till the next post, deal?

Hitz Songs?
What goes around comes around
by Justin Timberlake

first day of school..
nothing really special...
heard the 3 suckers gave lame & long speech
like we are new buddies..duhh
the speech last almost for and hour..damn it
not just that, because of the rain, almost 2000 students
stuck in the damn small hall
which only can fit around 1000
no oxygen..fainted..hospital..lawyer firm..sue the school
lol

form teacher..mrs.shandy..i mean shanti..wateva
i am not going to like her...
not just her..and others too..
they all like act pro..macam yes..very lan ci
maybe morning teachers are like that
i still need to face them for the whole year..
macam mana nak tahan? TT

election for class ajk..
no comments..
3 years BENDAHARI in a row..
ok, i know that i love money..
but not this way...no choice
really think they should vote for new one
let them have a try, maybe they could do better than us

looking forward to meet other subjects teacher
but hope that they are not what i describe
and really desperate if pn.sugumarie could teach us
honestly..what so big deal about form 3 or morning session?
the difference with the juniors are, we have a collar badge
just want to let those biggy know, stop babbling during assembly
you know we wont listen so just shut up
dont waste your saliva and our time, by the way
we're not kinddys dude!!

from yesterday,
i went back to DA ZHI to help,
because lack of ppl for the chanting ceremony
these few days are very precious for me
not just that i learn loads of daily life things
i also started to ''see'' ppl hearts
orally and physically

*i wouldnt like to use one name
nobody like to see their name in other ppl blogs
because of bad bad things*

yesterday, we have lots and lots of baskets, big containers
and especially the thing we use to cover the food
we need to rub the dirt away and clean them
if i am not mistaken, the amount reach 30++
never mind, we only got a few friends around to help
good gracious, how can we finish cleaning them by time?!
but we still have to finish our work, though
so, we started dividing to groups
which to scrub, which to wash
luckily the weather is kinda windy and we enjoyed
within half an hour,
in came more baskets....
i am speechless...

do you know how dirty those things is?
my god, i cant even describe,
we didnt even have a pair of glove dude
but we didnt think much
right now, we just need to finish our work
actually i also dont really mind those dirt
doing the work with a bunch of friends
threw everything negative away
isnt that great?

minutes tick by..
eventhough we have finished part of them
but in every sight of mine still consists of a lot more
like its not becoming lesser but the opposite
i was quite relief and happy
when she came and help
but i am wrong
it was worst than a disaster
four of us were scrubing and one of us were washing
so, i asked them whether they could help with the washing
2 pills for soap + water another 2 pills for clean water
one of the she take the hose (need to spray of the dirt)
(actually the hose thingy, my friend take care)
so, i told her that she should hand wash the things
before spraying
but she didnt follow what say..
maybe she didnt get what i mean..
so i repeated the same words
and still she did not follow
ahh, i get it..she doesnt want to use her jade hand
well, i am not so happy that time but i didnt show it out
so, i let her spray as much as she like
later, my friend take over back her job
and 'she' took those washed to let it dry under the sunlight
i guess it was a good idea, at least she wasnt within my sight
she pass by us when taking it to dry
and the meantime, i felt raindrops pouring on my back
goodness, can she hold it higher?
use your damn brain to think..even a pig is smarter than you
i never even heard a sorry from her..ARGH!!

i really cant stand her man..
i really want to stand up,shout at her and smack her face
but cant i, can i?
i cant just scold her just because to let me feel better,
i need to think of others circumtances..
be patience, i told myself
calm down and most of all...SABAR!!

any kind of ppl also exist around you..
be careful...

~chill~

THIS is the ONLY & ONE picture of our group
really appreciated and enjoyed spending the time with you all
thanks again...

hey my buddys,
back from camp
i understand that you all missed me during my absence..lol

the first day is kinda boring but quite excited to
excited = expected a lot of fun (last year camp is great)
boring = its not what i expected
we have 5 gentlemen and 4 ladies...xD
i am kind of sad and dissappointed
because eventhough our group is brilliant
but there is still one more teeny tiny thing
lack of leng zai...haha

back to the topic..i think i have gone quite a distant
my group is kind of..not so together
when we have a project, not everyone will put in 100%
some of them will take their sweet time
some of them will gone to another group
some of them will give lame ideas
some of them will just shut up like a mute
some of them will sit aside and wait for work
well, what can i say?
is this what you call a group?
is this what you call group work?
is this what you call putting afford?

Jia Jun, Wan Jun
my group leader..
they are really great..really
when i say they are, they are
i think they can be better, if they try to listen to the others
especially the group members
they should have take out some time, even a second
to listen to them what is their opinion,comment
not push them aside like ''mine is good, yours sucks''
i understand that we have a limited time to finish our project
and you scare we cant do it in time
tell me, both of you,
marks or members?
which is more important?
i bet you will tell me ''members''
but for me, its not an honest answer
ask your heart, not your mouth

Man Xin,
your are going to be 12, if i am not mistaken
i would like to advice that you should have be more open minded
maybe your thinking are not really the same compare to us
which are older than you
i think we have quite lefted you out and we are really sorry
i wish we could just sit down for just once and listen to you
not letting your comments disappearing into thin air
i hope you can understand that the time is limited
i should have treat you more like a friend but not a little girl

Ice Cream aka Chi Lim
can you give me your dimple?lol
well, i didnt really notice your presence at first,
i never even think you exist..sry
but later, i sense that you are quite good looking or
i should say, cute..but thats not the point
i really enjoy talking to you..really
cause i feel that comparing with the others
you're quite friendly to talk with
you're sporting, cute as i say earlier
and most of all i think you will be a great leader in the future
let me tell you one of the conditions to be a sucess leader
no matter how bad the personality your member is
dont say it out in front of everyone..it hurts

Get Ing aka Ogawa aka Organic
hey, thanks for our comic group photo you have drawn
you're a wonderful artist
and you're quite hardworking and a good helper
enjoyed cleaning the toilet with you..lol
i think that you're almost mature
why did i say 'almost'?
because whenever there's a conversation between you and me
i can feel that you're trying hard to talk and think like a grown up
but i think you shouldnt do that cause that's not you
i am not sure i am saying the right words, but thats how i feel

De Ling
when you start non stopping talking
i would really like to shout at you and say 'shut the fuck up'
rude..rude..rude..i know that
your really need to know when to talk and when to shut up for good
you need to know what to say and what need not to say
you need to know your opinions shouldnt gone to far until holland
maybe you need attention but not using this way
but i happy that you have change during the following days
so keep up the good work!!

Chi An
erm..quite a good asst 2
you listen to what your leader ask you to do and you'll do it
you seldom say no because you seldom talk..lol
you should have voice out more and be more confident
dont always stick with ice cream like you 2 cant be seperated
haha, you are not gay, are you? XD

one more thing i would like to say..
who the hell is the one who shot my head??
stand up and spit out..dont be coward
i forgotten to lay slowly on the pillow
and bang...damn painful
i know its an accident,
but i really keen to know,
who is the one that is so good in aiming!! xoxo

2 years...it has been 2 years
hey, not kidding, 2 YEARS man...
through this 2 years,too much happenings

from a primary kiddy to secondary student
when i think back, times flies in a blink of eye
it's not only the time you are chasing
there are something we're also fighting with the time
what's the something?
i cant answer you, it's up to you
what you think/want the something to be, then it is
no one on earth can decide for you
because everything comes back to yourself

i am, myself is aslo chasing something right now,
right this minute, right this second
and i believe, if i really put in all my afford
my something will come back to me
like it's belong to me

but sometimes when i think about it,
i dont really what is the something i want?
i have a caring family
i have a bunch of great friends
i have shelter, clothes, food, basic needs
i have my mobile, laptop, nintendo, tv, radio
do i need more?
this is more than enough for those who are born parentless
compare to them, i'm jerk this instant

people say 'love is blind'
i say 'greed is blind'
when you're greedy, nothing can stop you from getting what you want
no matter it's your lover, siblings or friends
if they try to stop you, i can say that they're going to be dead roasted

maybe you'll think i am insane, talking about rubbish, nonsense
saying that this wont happen, not even a teeny-weeny-tiny chance
my advice for those who're thinking the same thing right now
change your mind, face the reality
21st century, everything can happen anywhere, everywhere
bad things wont tell you 'i m coming, please try to avoid'
lastly, face the fact that 'greed is blind'
when you hurt someone so deeply that saying sorry cant help
one thing you can do is,
whack yourself dude !!

yoyoyo..i am back..
went to the modern home exhibition brought to you by citibank
not bad though..common booths..nothing special
saw the Napure salesman for the 3rd time...lol

went there to search for doors...found a good bargain
and end up buying a door and wallpapers...
cool...the wallpapers were gorgeous
italian, germany, belgium, taiwan and korean made
germany has the best quality
italian has the worst quality
korean has more simple and nice choices
(learnt from the salesgirl)
(she waste a lot of saliva in explaining)

eventhough it's a tiring day
but...something very interesting happened
we're looking the doors,
a salesguy came and start introducing..
i wasnt looking at the guy, not good looking at all
but then my mum told me stg...
and her words made me stare at him..
she told me ''the guy didnt zip his pant''
my sis started laughing
but since it was very noisy,nobody heard

my first reaction was,
not telling him to zip it up
but look at his you-know-what...i mean the zip
it was not even half-zipped...
he forgot to zip the whole thing...
to his luck was it wasnt very obvious...at first
the hole is getting bigger and bigger man
(still cant see what colour his underwear is..nvm)
i asked my dad to tell him
since both are guys...more easier..less embaressment
guess what my dad say when we leave the booth?
''we come here to buy household items, not see ppl got zip pants or not''

zzZZ...what can i say? just shut up
actually i have a good idea to tell him
without letting him to know who told him
sms him la...pro right?

aiya..know you all sure blur and saying,
''how sms him wor? you didnt even have his number..
stupid...blah blah blah''
if i am so stupid, my name also not elaine la...

*please dont scroll down or highlight to find the ending..
because my dear friend, i am waiting for you to guess yourself
or ask me when you gave up..*

recently i watched a drama series
eventhough i dont really like it
cause it's kinda boring and too fake
but what caught my ears is the songs
i post 3 songs from the drama at my mixpod
and i highly recommended the first song
as it is my favourite
the other 2 songs are quite nice too
so, if you all have time, spend some time listening
thanks

i dont like to post posts that are emo
or anything that are not me
but this time i think i'll break my rules for once...

u say that the earth is not suitable for you
and you blame your mother because of bringing you here
10 months your mother been suffering
and you do nothing but sleep and eat and kick
and now you still blame your mum

you wish to be as free as a bird
to where which you wish to
''i believe i can fly..i believe i can touch the sky
to think about you every night and day''
you hope this miracle will happen to you
but let me tell you something..
a bird..an animal
a poor woman...a human
to lots of ppl out there, maybe they'll choose to be a bird
but it's only an animal...
it cant think right or wrong
it cant have a bunch of great friends
it cant know how to enjoy its life
it cant enjoy tasty food, nice clothes, playing games
it cant figure what is sour, sweet, bitter,spicy that we face through in our everyday life
all it knows is..
eat worms
drink dirty water
shit on ppl cars
fight for a mate
build nest
have sex
find worms for the new borns
teach them how to fly
and leave them when the time it's up
then fly here fly there
either they die peacefully or crashed by a car
let the worms and flies be the one who watch him die
thats the life of a bird
are you sure this is what you want?
think wisely when you're still a human

sometimes you wish to know this and that
sometimes you wish not to know so much things
this is life...
sometimes it doesnt let you to choose whether to find out the truth or not
sometimes no matter how far you run away from the truth,
it'll just stick on you and you cant peel it off (because its uhu glue)

so my friend,
face the fact that you're a human
enjoy your life when you still have a chance
no one can predict what will happen tomorrow
appreciate what you have when you have
between a happy day and bad day?
which will you choose?
a happy day is way better than the bad...

i have a tiny weeny wish
change clasamates (not all of them)
but not class
its great to be pure a1
but anyway if
i didnt have the chance to be pure a1
let the classmates be different

somewhere in my heart told me that
i am sick with the classmates this year
the main and only reason why i choose to change is
the same drama will just replay
i dont want this happen
i want my high school life to be interesting
full of new adventures
full of new friends
not getting to know the same person
this is not i want
i want something NEW & SUPRISING

what a boring holiday...
right now, i having ntg do...
before that i was reading a book
'' The Westing Game ''
Incredible...a great twist in the end
and the climax was damn fascinating
cool..

i hate doing chores..
no choice..
the stupid sun made me sweat like sauna-ing
not those morning sun with cool breeze
its the afternoon sun with high tech lazer
which you can easily get severe sunburn
or even worst..skin cancer..lol
we're dead..dead..or may be roasted(loo2 borrow me first..xD)
i wonder why these fews day are getting hotter and hotter
shouldnt it be raining cats and dogs as it was the end of the year
climate changes..global warming..
haiz...

i hope that are miracles..
if not, i'll be dead-boring before school starts
mourn for me then

peanut butter bread
and
coke
for
tea...

what do you think?
sweet
and
salty
kinda gross...

today was actually a fine day
but a phone call made it a disaster
the end of my world
but at least better than 2012

i was having lunch at pizza hut
chicken bolognese...i remebered
and then my hp rang..
cool..i took it out from my pocket..
chewing the spaghetti...nice
80% mum called..

before i pick up the phone
i knew what she want to ask and know
and bingo, i am right...
who the hell is that guy?
of course and as usual
i answer...you-know-what

fine..then the second phone came..
my god..can you just let me finish my lunch?
no...quick2 called
and start telling me the BIG news..
which is...you-know-what

well, what can i say is and conclude with
emotional is not my type
and definetely emo doesnt work on me
and emo is not a clever way to dig the answer
and hate those ppl which know the answer
and still say i dunno
and using the emo way
and when the ppl get the answer, he/she say
''actually i know already, i just wan to double confirm''

what can i say?
ntg...ped ped la
what can i do?
ntg...slap him/her

by now
the BIG thing has settle
phew..what a relief
but the main thing is..
eventhough i still treat you as a friend for now
doesnt mean that i will still as a friend should in the future
and...
your acting sucks
i know it through your words
so next time if you still pura pura
dont say sorry
too late..
smart ass

the fourth post..wth
nvm..i like to post..so what
you blow ar...

lets talk about the movie..
lets not..
give me a second...thinking...dun interrupt

ahah...
well,
me la
mz la
ee cheng la
yin2 la
lee chia la
yap min la
6 of us makan at gary..
sad & angry..
y?

others la..
ask you all come eat together..
say dont want..
fine lo..so we makan sendiri lo
but also have a lot fun
cause of those grown up talks..
yin2 pro..80% like a mum

skip all those grown up talk..18pl
those under 18...sorry
want to know the details?
ask me and will give you our 80% mum h/p no
feel free to ask me and
feel very free to call her
feel very very free to ask anything you want about the talk
she wont disappointed you..guarentee..
fast forward first...if not..the whole post will be dedicate to her adi..
this is not what i expected..

so, eat..talk..eat..drink..talk..talk
then john called..
he ask me ''finish makan adi anot? where wanna meet?''
i said'' wan finish adi...finish di i call u la..bb''
then..eat..finish..talk..talk..talk..forget about john..sry

walao..what happen in the next minute
wasnt what i imagine
cause i am facing the door..
i am the first one to see a whole bunch of ''ppl''
walking to the restaurent..
i was like
'' fark..tell u all dun wan talk adi la..ppl waiting for us..now summore all come!''
so, we quickly ask for the bill

but too late..
i expected one of them come in...
but i am wrong..
the whole group came in...lol
21-6=15
15 ppl get around us like police capturing baddys
OMG!!
so, we all try as fast as we could to pay the bill
but it was like ages..i didnt even dare to look at them...
didnt even dare to look at the ppl in the restaurent
at the moment,
i was only thinking ''fast..fast..damn fish''

at last..phew
we gao dim the bill and leave...
but the story havent ended...
this is only part 1..
stay tune for part 2...

to be continued

the 3rd post..never post so much on a day
haha..break my record

this post is regarding FOOD..lol
lunch for me at gary is 12
for all is around 100
which is so expensive

the food sucks..for me..
the others i dunno..but also sucks i think
i ate the D set lunch
which include
steak + spaghetti..its that the correct spelling..whatever
a soup..cream or bouch...mz how to spell..
a drink

the steak was ok...
the spaghetti..was actually nice with black pepper sauce
but i have no idea why the chef still throw chilli
idiot him..the sauce is quite hot and he still add in chillies
y dun he go eat belacan+cili padi+wasabi together..smart ass
then spaghetti itself was so weird..its like not warm at all
nvm then..

the soup..my god..its taste like container
or even worst, cockroach/lizard shit
(eventhough i never taste b4, i knew it)
i drank the first spoon..
i was like..
''what the hell is this? the soup problem or my tongue?''
then i sip again...
'' can i spit it out? but i am not having lunch with my family, dude''
so, i force myself to swallow
wish you can see my face expression..lol
the whole meal i never touch the thing again...

the drink, fine...i called ice ''yin yong''
no comments cause its nothing different compare to kopitiams

we called different sets..but most rugi is yin2
guess what she ate?
curry noodles (which is maggi mee)
you can see it from the menu
so obvious..i had no idea why she ordered that
what a waste of money...
but maybe she didnt ate maggi mee for a long time..
no wonder..
its not her fault then...haha
what a good friend am i...tqtq

i'll just stop for now...
P.S. FOOD IS BIGGER THAN SKY

the second post for today..
lol

well..to be honest
i really felt weird to get along with you all today
sorry to say that
want the reason?
21 person man...

its like going on a tour
'' welcome to malaysia, china folks..''
'' this is one of the most popular shopping centre..''
'' hope you all get good buys...''
'' please follow the flag, i'll lead you all around..''
'' then you can start shopping...''
'' the time now is 1130, please gather at the main entrance at 5''
'' please be punctual, we'll have dinner at...''
'' thanks for your cooperation''

well, thats what i think...
haiz..i know its vry rude for me to just gone disappear
but..i dunno how to face you all
forgive my rudeness..TT

what to share..erm

these days..
i found out a lot of things..lol
which now is a common gossip for all of us
but not me n ee cheng
y?
we just shut up for good
y?
cause shut up is the best way
y?
so we would not hurt others
y?

fine, after so many whys, let me explain, hah
the A.G n YY are now the hottest topic for all the drama to gossip
which i m sure you know what i mean

i understood YY has a lot of fans (admirers) nowadays
which is good..(thinking how to continue)
and i also understood its common for us to gossip
but...

do we think of others circumtances while gossiping?
NO !!
we just start gossiping as much as we like
as loud as we want
the loud the merrier
the more the happier
but...

maybe..in the 21 of us..
there are more which are also YY fans
now what?
still continue with the gossiping?
or shut up like we do?
for goodness sake..SHUT UP

the one who walk last
the one who sit last
the one who we had hurt so deeply but have no idea about it
the one who was so quiet from the begin to the end
the one who had no chance to be closer with her
the one who only can watch her from the back

but the most important is..
the one knew the truth from his 'FRIEND'
the one's friend had no idea that one also admire her
and told one at the wrong time
but what can one do?
told his friend that he have feelings for her too?
no way right?
the only and one way is...
stay optimistic and fake a smile

feel how deeply the pain is?
the hurt cant be mend..
eventhough one just look nothing
do what he do everyday
say what say everyday
look what he look everyday
but..

it's still not the same
get it?
DIFFERENT..smart ass