from yesterday,
i went back to DA ZHI to help,
because lack of ppl for the chanting ceremony
these few days are very precious for me
not just that i learn loads of daily life things
i also started to ''see'' ppl hearts
orally and physically

*i wouldnt like to use one name
nobody like to see their name in other ppl blogs
because of bad bad things*

yesterday, we have lots and lots of baskets, big containers
and especially the thing we use to cover the food
we need to rub the dirt away and clean them
if i am not mistaken, the amount reach 30++
never mind, we only got a few friends around to help
good gracious, how can we finish cleaning them by time?!
but we still have to finish our work, though
so, we started dividing to groups
which to scrub, which to wash
luckily the weather is kinda windy and we enjoyed
within half an hour,
in came more baskets....
i am speechless...

do you know how dirty those things is?
my god, i cant even describe,
we didnt even have a pair of glove dude
but we didnt think much
right now, we just need to finish our work
actually i also dont really mind those dirt
doing the work with a bunch of friends
threw everything negative away
isnt that great?

minutes tick by..
eventhough we have finished part of them
but in every sight of mine still consists of a lot more
like its not becoming lesser but the opposite
i was quite relief and happy
when she came and help
but i am wrong
it was worst than a disaster
four of us were scrubing and one of us were washing
so, i asked them whether they could help with the washing
2 pills for soap + water another 2 pills for clean water
one of the she take the hose (need to spray of the dirt)
(actually the hose thingy, my friend take care)
so, i told her that she should hand wash the things
before spraying
but she didnt follow what say..
maybe she didnt get what i mean..
so i repeated the same words
and still she did not follow
ahh, i get it..she doesnt want to use her jade hand
well, i am not so happy that time but i didnt show it out
so, i let her spray as much as she like
later, my friend take over back her job
and 'she' took those washed to let it dry under the sunlight
i guess it was a good idea, at least she wasnt within my sight
she pass by us when taking it to dry
and the meantime, i felt raindrops pouring on my back
goodness, can she hold it higher?
use your damn brain to think..even a pig is smarter than you
i never even heard a sorry from her..ARGH!!

i really cant stand her man..
i really want to stand up,shout at her and smack her face
but cant i, can i?
i cant just scold her just because to let me feel better,
i need to think of others circumtances..
be patience, i told myself
calm down and most of all...SABAR!!

any kind of ppl also exist around you..
be careful...

~chill~

THIS is the ONLY & ONE picture of our group
really appreciated and enjoyed spending the time with you all
thanks again...

hey my buddys,
back from camp
i understand that you all missed me during my absence..lol

the first day is kinda boring but quite excited to
excited = expected a lot of fun (last year camp is great)
boring = its not what i expected
we have 5 gentlemen and 4 ladies...xD
i am kind of sad and dissappointed
because eventhough our group is brilliant
but there is still one more teeny tiny thing
lack of leng zai...haha

back to the topic..i think i have gone quite a distant
my group is kind of..not so together
when we have a project, not everyone will put in 100%
some of them will take their sweet time
some of them will gone to another group
some of them will give lame ideas
some of them will just shut up like a mute
some of them will sit aside and wait for work
well, what can i say?
is this what you call a group?
is this what you call group work?
is this what you call putting afford?

Jia Jun, Wan Jun
my group leader..
they are really great..really
when i say they are, they are
i think they can be better, if they try to listen to the others
especially the group members
they should have take out some time, even a second
to listen to them what is their opinion,comment
not push them aside like ''mine is good, yours sucks''
i understand that we have a limited time to finish our project
and you scare we cant do it in time
tell me, both of you,
marks or members?
which is more important?
i bet you will tell me ''members''
but for me, its not an honest answer
ask your heart, not your mouth

Man Xin,
your are going to be 12, if i am not mistaken
i would like to advice that you should have be more open minded
maybe your thinking are not really the same compare to us
which are older than you
i think we have quite lefted you out and we are really sorry
i wish we could just sit down for just once and listen to you
not letting your comments disappearing into thin air
i hope you can understand that the time is limited
i should have treat you more like a friend but not a little girl

Ice Cream aka Chi Lim
can you give me your dimple?lol
well, i didnt really notice your presence at first,
i never even think you exist..sry
but later, i sense that you are quite good looking or
i should say, cute..but thats not the point
i really enjoy talking to you..really
cause i feel that comparing with the others
you're quite friendly to talk with
you're sporting, cute as i say earlier
and most of all i think you will be a great leader in the future
let me tell you one of the conditions to be a sucess leader
no matter how bad the personality your member is
dont say it out in front of everyone..it hurts

Get Ing aka Ogawa aka Organic
hey, thanks for our comic group photo you have drawn
you're a wonderful artist
and you're quite hardworking and a good helper
enjoyed cleaning the toilet with you..lol
i think that you're almost mature
why did i say 'almost'?
because whenever there's a conversation between you and me
i can feel that you're trying hard to talk and think like a grown up
but i think you shouldnt do that cause that's not you
i am not sure i am saying the right words, but thats how i feel

De Ling
when you start non stopping talking
i would really like to shout at you and say 'shut the fuck up'
rude..rude..rude..i know that
your really need to know when to talk and when to shut up for good
you need to know what to say and what need not to say
you need to know your opinions shouldnt gone to far until holland
maybe you need attention but not using this way
but i happy that you have change during the following days
so keep up the good work!!

Chi An
erm..quite a good asst 2
you listen to what your leader ask you to do and you'll do it
you seldom say no because you seldom talk..lol
you should have voice out more and be more confident
dont always stick with ice cream like you 2 cant be seperated
haha, you are not gay, are you? XD

one more thing i would like to say..
who the hell is the one who shot my head??
stand up and spit out..dont be coward
i forgotten to lay slowly on the pillow
and bang...damn painful
i know its an accident,
but i really keen to know,
who is the one that is so good in aiming!! xoxo

2 years...it has been 2 years
hey, not kidding, 2 YEARS man...
through this 2 years,too much happenings

from a primary kiddy to secondary student
when i think back, times flies in a blink of eye
it's not only the time you are chasing
there are something we're also fighting with the time
what's the something?
i cant answer you, it's up to you
what you think/want the something to be, then it is
no one on earth can decide for you
because everything comes back to yourself

i am, myself is aslo chasing something right now,
right this minute, right this second
and i believe, if i really put in all my afford
my something will come back to me
like it's belong to me

but sometimes when i think about it,
i dont really what is the something i want?
i have a caring family
i have a bunch of great friends
i have shelter, clothes, food, basic needs
i have my mobile, laptop, nintendo, tv, radio
do i need more?
this is more than enough for those who are born parentless
compare to them, i'm jerk this instant

people say 'love is blind'
i say 'greed is blind'
when you're greedy, nothing can stop you from getting what you want
no matter it's your lover, siblings or friends
if they try to stop you, i can say that they're going to be dead roasted

maybe you'll think i am insane, talking about rubbish, nonsense
saying that this wont happen, not even a teeny-weeny-tiny chance
my advice for those who're thinking the same thing right now
change your mind, face the reality
21st century, everything can happen anywhere, everywhere
bad things wont tell you 'i m coming, please try to avoid'
lastly, face the fact that 'greed is blind'
when you hurt someone so deeply that saying sorry cant help
one thing you can do is,
whack yourself dude !!

yoyoyo..i am back..
went to the modern home exhibition brought to you by citibank
not bad though..common booths..nothing special
saw the Napure salesman for the 3rd time...lol

went there to search for doors...found a good bargain
and end up buying a door and wallpapers...
cool...the wallpapers were gorgeous
italian, germany, belgium, taiwan and korean made
germany has the best quality
italian has the worst quality
korean has more simple and nice choices
(learnt from the salesgirl)
(she waste a lot of saliva in explaining)

eventhough it's a tiring day
but...something very interesting happened
we're looking the doors,
a salesguy came and start introducing..
i wasnt looking at the guy, not good looking at all
but then my mum told me stg...
and her words made me stare at him..
she told me ''the guy didnt zip his pant''
my sis started laughing
but since it was very noisy,nobody heard

my first reaction was,
not telling him to zip it up
but look at his you-know-what...i mean the zip
it was not even half-zipped...
he forgot to zip the whole thing...
to his luck was it wasnt very obvious...at first
the hole is getting bigger and bigger man
(still cant see what colour his underwear is..nvm)
i asked my dad to tell him
since both are guys...more easier..less embaressment
guess what my dad say when we leave the booth?
''we come here to buy household items, not see ppl got zip pants or not''

zzZZ...what can i say? just shut up
actually i have a good idea to tell him
without letting him to know who told him
sms him la...pro right?

aiya..know you all sure blur and saying,
''how sms him wor? you didnt even have his number..
stupid...blah blah blah''
if i am so stupid, my name also not elaine la...

*please dont scroll down or highlight to find the ending..
because my dear friend, i am waiting for you to guess yourself
or ask me when you gave up..*

recently i watched a drama series
eventhough i dont really like it
cause it's kinda boring and too fake
but what caught my ears is the songs
i post 3 songs from the drama at my mixpod
and i highly recommended the first song
as it is my favourite
the other 2 songs are quite nice too
so, if you all have time, spend some time listening
thanks

i dont like to post posts that are emo
or anything that are not me
but this time i think i'll break my rules for once...

u say that the earth is not suitable for you
and you blame your mother because of bringing you here
10 months your mother been suffering
and you do nothing but sleep and eat and kick
and now you still blame your mum

you wish to be as free as a bird
to where which you wish to
''i believe i can fly..i believe i can touch the sky
to think about you every night and day''
you hope this miracle will happen to you
but let me tell you something..
a bird..an animal
a poor woman...a human
to lots of ppl out there, maybe they'll choose to be a bird
but it's only an animal...
it cant think right or wrong
it cant have a bunch of great friends
it cant know how to enjoy its life
it cant enjoy tasty food, nice clothes, playing games
it cant figure what is sour, sweet, bitter,spicy that we face through in our everyday life
all it knows is..
eat worms
drink dirty water
shit on ppl cars
fight for a mate
build nest
have sex
find worms for the new borns
teach them how to fly
and leave them when the time it's up
then fly here fly there
either they die peacefully or crashed by a car
let the worms and flies be the one who watch him die
thats the life of a bird
are you sure this is what you want?
think wisely when you're still a human

sometimes you wish to know this and that
sometimes you wish not to know so much things
this is life...
sometimes it doesnt let you to choose whether to find out the truth or not
sometimes no matter how far you run away from the truth,
it'll just stick on you and you cant peel it off (because its uhu glue)

so my friend,
face the fact that you're a human
enjoy your life when you still have a chance
no one can predict what will happen tomorrow
appreciate what you have when you have
between a happy day and bad day?
which will you choose?
a happy day is way better than the bad...